There are so many emotions running inside me and I'm still unable to bury them properly. With each passing day , the more I am growing older, more the pain of past is getting attached to me. I am already filled up to the brim . And now my emotions have started to spill out. Some days are really horrifying and nights are always the worst.
Your daughter is tearing herself apart. Some nights your daughter loses herself yet smiles in the morning. When you're not around, it's scary. Your absence haunts me. I want to tell you what I am feeling, I want to cry on your shoulders. Your little girl is losing her innocence. This world is too dark for her.
I want you to embrace me when I am silent but heartbroken. I want you to hold me and let me cry in your lap. Mom, please take me back in your womb. It was good there , warm and safe. Hide me because I won't be able to fight with these horrifying demons outside. It is suffocating and hard to live in this world. People here are confusing, everything they do is illogical. All they know is to compete with each other but you never taught me that. You taught me to stay strong and independent. You taught me to smile in the face of adversity and to believe in myself no matter what anyone says but I am still lacking confidence. Help me to become atleast half like you. You always asked me to be patient but I still get depressed whenever I think about future. I still remember the time when I was little and you would read the same story night after night until I would fall asleep. Read me a story tonight, it's been a while since I actually had a comfortable sleep.